got no reason, got no shame, got no family I can blame.

I want to
kick, fret, stomp my feet and shout!

I've been studying for almost 2 weeks for this paper and it's so much harder than I expected!
ish.

Why must the last semester papers be so goshdamned hard?! the lecture isn't that hard itself but why must the questions be so non-straight forward! why must the questions question my answers!

thank gosh I have 3 days in between to study for my accounting which btw if you guys hadn't realised has became my weakest subject this semester.

who knew that in high school, my best subject has now became my worst and my worst subject EVER, additional mathematics has now became my best.

I strongly believe that it's the way we are taught! FIND SOME GOOD LECTURERS TO TEACH LA. come on! that's why I suck in accounting now. my accounting lecturer SUCK!

after the first 2 papers, I'm now doubting myself and I don't think I can even finish answering my accounting questions if it's gonna be as tough like the first 2 papers.

AHHH! I hate thinking, let it be over with because I really care about me results! & this will be the last one and I think this one counts the most. or do they add up the entire foundation semesters?

I just needed to vent. I hate exams!

why can't I open the paper and think, "oh I know this one" instead of "omfg, I saw this in the note but I didn't really read it, oh crap!"

oh crap!

I'm gonna

eat. sleep. breath. shower. sit & stand

with a big STUDY neon coloured cloud above my head.

said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control & I need you now.

iMovie - Dear John.

two weeks together, that's all it took, two week for me to fall for you

I really didn't like it. disappointing. such a letdown.

If you watched it without knowing what book its based on, who directed it or anything, you wouldn't think that its based on one of Nicholas Sparks' book because you wouldn't feel the love you felt while watching The Notebook, A Walk To Remember, Nights In Rodanthe or Message In The Bottle.

While watching, I feel so frustrated because the movie didn't really portray the hardship and the troubled life John been through before signing up for the army or how his father goes through the same thing everyday with his work and with his coins collection.

& they didn't really portray how open and down to earth and kind and nice and sweet Savannah is. && its so frustrating not to see how much in love John and Savannah is! in the movie they look like they're having a summer fling only. pffts.

The movie didn't really grabbed my heart like how the book did. But to be honest, it's such a good book, it sucked seeing how they transfer that into a movie. They rushed everything in the movie until it seemed like they missed all the important element that made the book special.

I hate the explanation that Savannah gave to John about why she's with Tim in the movie because in the book, that's the type of person Savannah is. she would give up everything she believed in, everything she dreamt about to help others.

BUT BUT I do like the ending of the movie more than the ending of the book ;) the only thing I like about it. that's all. such a letdown, really! shouldn't have watched :P

Now I wish that The Last Song wouldn't be as disappointing as this one! I have yet to read the book. Maybe I'll just read the book after the movie.

The movie is nothing like the book. I think you should read the book to be more satisfied because I felt empty watching the movie.

I've realised that I shouldn't read or watch any book/movie that has a book/movie. because I'll compare them and then I'll get all frustrated and stuff. I should start reading something that won't be produced into a movie.

I've been sick for over a week now which sucks because now I can't start studying! My finals is about 10 days away and I have yet picked up my books. Its either I don't have the mood to or I don't feel good or I'm having a headache. I have to get better, like right NOW!

I have so much to self teach myself.
I'm actually worried! oh crap.

taking back my love, you said you change, but still nothing.

iMovie - Princess Protection Program.

Turn back your time readers, because I'm taking you back to Saturday, 10th April 2010 ;)

Had a little get together reunion with a few of the Jupiterians. after that I went shopping with Angeline and Vivian.

idc what you guy say, 5 Jupiter class of 2008 is still the class to beat for rebelliousness.
we made teachers cry, made them not want to teach or even enter our class, made the top of the most complained class list, had the most suspended students and we even had our own little nasi lemak business that was going on. I know this isn't what we should be proud of but that's all we got :D

Didn't really shop with Viv cause she had to leave but I sure did shop with Angeline until I had to go press more money out :) My first time shopping with Sot. it was a successful mission. not gonna go shop with her some more because she makes me buy everything!

Sot reading some Hannah Montana book.

Julian came back after sitting for his paper and we stayed there until nightfall. Went over to Royce after that. man. I tell you! Julian, even with a GPS system serious fail to lead the way! I blindly go also can find. tsk.

Stayed until quite late. I don't remember what we did but time surely passed by quickly.

Sent Rachel home then I crashed at Ely's! Rachel, I blame YOUUYOUR MUM for getting me sick! I'm like a sick dog now! feeling like crap, suffering! I don't blame Ely for being the one that passed me her sickness but blame youu because you made me sleep with her :P:P! heh.

I bailed out of Ely's super early the next day. felt like a cheap hooker sneaking out after having sex. I did leave her a somewhat lovely note though :)

Fast Forward from Sunday morning to Monday evening :)

Choo came to pick Vivian & Rachel up from my place to go say bye-bye to Royce Jee. In the car, on the way there, we were all making noise, having a blast, laughing and shouting. Took loads of pictures in the airport, used up quite a lot of tissues. I won't say who used the most la okay. it's understandable.

I find that totally cool. Hols facebooking in the car!

NOTICE: Rachel has a severe face problem that day and requested that her face shall not be seen in any of what I think looks like lovely pictures of her.
heh. but since when I do what she says ;P

Royce saying "remember when...."

wake up, SLEEPYHEAD!

I was totally drunk, I had my glasses upside down, or not :P

pictures from Vivian's camera!

I'll cry myself to sleep when the next one leaves me here!

Said bye bye, hug hug, kiss kiss, wave wave, sniff sniff until we pretend to see Royce's flight taking off. yes. laugh it out.

The car ride back was totally intense, total silence.

more pictures from Choo's pro camera
coming your way :) after it comes my way of course.

when you fall apart, dry your eyes. life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

iSeries - Supernatural

I'm spoiling my whole season of Supernatural :(

Season 4 is taking a long time to download so I started downloading season 5 too, from the latest one. but now, 8 of the latest episodes is done! I'm really fighting the urge to watch after watching the latest 2!

I'm watching it backwards! haha. no more! come on laa.

Season 3,4 and 5 isn't as scary as season 1 and 2. maybe because it's now very predictable. after watching this, I have a serious urge to put a packet of salt in my room. just in case :P

anyways.

I had my most excited morning and disappointed evening all in one day.

my mother told her friends that I'll be going to Perth for my holiday without me insinuating that I wanted to go. of course after hearing that, I got all excited and stuff.

Yesterday, she had a talk with my brother & she knew that I didn't have a chance of going to Perth anymore as my brother needed that money but she let me go on and on about how happy I was and how I'm gonna start saving money and stuff!

that hurts the most. I'm already used to being the one that has to sacrifice when it comes to money problem. My brother will get all the money first then I'll get what's left after my sister is done too.

it just sucks! cause, here's the summary.

From Russia -> Malaysia = money
From Malaysia -> Adelaide = money
From Adelaide back -> Malaysia = money
From Malaysia -> Adelaide again = money!

he can only go into Australia for 3 month one time as his job starts only in November but he'll be graduating this July therefore he has to come back here then go back there. Might as well stay here until August! but nooo. staying here isn't an option -.-

sometimes it's so hard to appreciate life when it's so sucky!

I can't wait to be living on my own
where I can do anything I want on my own time!

in your wedding dress, to have and to hold & even at my best.

iMovie - Fast & Furious.

Paul Walker ♥

I bet every guy imagines themselves as Paul Walker when they're driving, right? :P

My very final finals is around 2 weeks or so away! I'm already kinda nervous for it because for one, I don't want to fail anything and two, I want to get As :P I have NO idea when I've become so aware of my grades! -probably when I started college.

I miss my old self where I didn't give a damn of what grades I get.

I'm starting on my revisions. doing heaps of accounting because I'm really falling back on them. For once I'm hating accounting so badly. gots to get it right! I'll seriously be ashamed of myself if I get anything below an A-? AHH!

dork alert ;)

anyhoo. I was so super heartbroken when I found out what happened to my watch! I didn't even realised that I broke the glass :( I still don't know how it happened. it's broken from the inside! hopefully it can be fixed! Sometimes that's why I don't want to wear it, I don't want to get scratches on it.

I don't even want to look at my watch!
the more I look at it, the more heartbroken I am.

cleaned my room yesterday. I would rather wash my own clothes, hang them up, clean my room than to wash the bloody car! It's covered with bird shit and those sap for the tree and everything else but I'm refusing to wash it! I HATE washing the car! ish. why isn't there a car wash service here for RM 8!

I shall park my car not-under the tree from now on so it won't get dirty! -.-

continue - cleaned my room and found this! Knuckle Heads.

it was my sister's but I stole it when I was younger! it's like batu seramban but without the beans :)

and this book! I bought it with Elyza and Wheyjinn when we were form 4, I think! I still don't want to use it. wanna save it for some special class or something :P

Spontaneously went for dinner at Renaissance. omfg! they should really just off the lights at one end of the restaurant! safe electricity because it was only us there! gosh. there's always people there for their buffet but when there's no buffet, there's no people! sadcase.

I finally remembered to take some picture before eating :D actually, it's because I was bored when the adults were talking business and I was just sitting there! it sucks when my sister is not there to suffer with me.

I wish I had more siblings! being the youngest and stuck here alone is no fun!

with mama bear.



skipped class today without telling Sot Sot.
after knowing, she skipped too & went shopping -.-

you seem like the type to love em & leave em & disappear right after the song

iMovie - She's The Man.

so last weekend was like... there's no word. amazing? proud? happy? yes! everything. AHH finally I got to see Sebastian Vettel jump on that top step! I've been waiting for 2 race for that! I wished I could have been there but I wasn't :( which sucked.

I can't wait for the day when I'll be clapping and cheering and jumping up&down celebrating his first world championship.

"I'm sorry. I'm a bit tipsy from the champagne.
I think I took a bit too much!"

I'll come to regret it later! I'm sure I will. anyways. I've learned that I can't be sitting at home knowing that I could be at Sepang! 4 years is one year too much and I'm hooked. I'll be at Sepang when there's F1 from now till eternity :P

anyways. when I first saw Nico Hulkenberg, I said "omg. he looks like a younger blonder Kimi" because he really do!

okaaay, can't compare la. I mean come on! :D

heh ♥

Back to reality!

It's now homestretch to my finals then graduation then the beginning of my degree! I can't wait for my course! I'm excited to know what I'll be learning :) dork alert.

Ooh I wanted to post this one(two) pictures up a long time ago :P

do you sometimes feel very lazy to be showering? do you sometimes imagine yourself being somewhere else while showering? do your mind wander or do you just start singing songs only? because with this tree outside my window, I imagine that I'm on some amazing island (like the one from Couples Retreat) every time I shower :D LOOL

when I'm showering when it rains, it really looked like there's a big typhoon outside when the leaves starts dancing! like the part in Devil Wears Prada when Miranda can't find a flight out of Miami(??)

I don't like Tang Sot Sot & her choices of songs!
arghh! :P
& I don't likey her this week!(she knows why)